Faith of a Mustardseed

Finally!  We are getting closer and closer to finishing up all of our paperwork and trying to get our doctors appointments and psychological evaluations finished.  I can just imagine some of the thoughts that just popped in your head just thinking about Andy and I and a psychological evaluation.  We are getting excited about our progress though.  I think one reason we were slowing down on everything was that we wanted to make sure we had everything we needed when it came time to turn in our big book.  And by everything I don't just mean the paperwork, I mean $5000.00 too!  Yeah, close your mouth because if you're like me when I first heard that, your mouth just dropped.  We have brainstormed on fundraising ideas and things we can do to raise money.  We are going to be having a yard sale sometime soon, Matthew(my sweet brother) said he would do a race and get his friends to help get sponsored if I wanted to do something like that, my Zumba teacher was talking to me about a Zumba-thon, and there are several more ideas that keep coming.  I was getting so excited about all the stuff we could do while at the same time stressing out a little about all the funds we have to raise and I was at my mother-in-laws one day and she spoke something to me that really slapped me in the face in a way.

"Stefanie, when has God ever not provided what you need at the exact moment you needed it?"  Think about it, it's so true. When has God ever just said, ok, hope all goes well for ya, check in when you can?  She wasn't saying that we shouldn't do fundraising, she was simply pointing out that I wasn't giving God enough credit.  Ouch.  Not something you want to admit about yourself.  My mother-in-law is a very wise woman.  I think so many times we try and make things happen on our own, and we don't ask for God's help. Or, we ask for His help and then immediately go out and try to make things work without giving Him a chance to show up when He's not working as fast as we think He should be.  That's me, I'm guilty of that.  I hope that this journey Andy and I are on will not only strengthen our relationship with one another, but also our relationship with God.  Being able to solely rely upon Him to provide us with what we need.  Matthew 17:20 says, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, "move from here to there" and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."  Thinking of how small a mustard seed actually is makes me realize that what He is saying is that if we have the slightest bit of faith, we can do extraordinary things. Placing our entire adoption journey in God's hands will only bless the final outcome even more!  We are excited to make this next step in turning in our book and getting closer to the "waiting pool" stage!